I seem to be posting more and more in my hate blog now. I hate it really, becasue I feel that I'm hiding somethings that I should talk about but afraid of the consequences. the fact is I feel more sad that the fact this blog was my expressive side of anything and everything personal about me, but like reality I made this blog a facade to show to people whereas my true feelings and thoughts lie elsewhere. i feel sort of pathetic that I have to hide somethings that people don't give a shit about...but hehehehehheheheheHAHHAHAHAH that's half the fun there as well.